Love and lost

K, i know ive got a ugly face. Anyway, life's been good till ive got to make a decision whether to go to 4Jade's class bbq anot. Everyone i asked advice from told me to go, but i still cant make up my mind. I still needa face things one day, yes true. But... maybe im just making life miserable for myself. Anyway, sad things aside.

I met up with Julydia last minute today after training. Nice, i like. Though it was to tell her how sad i was at first, but i ended up gossiping to her telling who i stalk. K i know imma big stalker. But thats what that make life interesting. Dont tell me you dont stalk *stares*

Today's rather emo-ish and my tweets, emo to the max. I dont like being sad or showing the emo side of me. I prefer to be known bubbly cheerful nice friendly (hahaahha) which is who i used to me. Then as i grow, life isn't that happy anymore. Though i cant wait to be 18/21, i wish life's happy like when i was still a kid. Or maybe its how i live my life thats making myself so miserable? I dont know. But at least after today, i really really know that though i've lost friends that i love, ive found friends that love me and all ready to be there. I realise im not a magnet for friends, as in i dont get close friends easily for reasons i dont know. (okay i know part of the reason) So i really treasure people i can get along with well. But things just dont fall into place as we expected, not because we've done anything wrong or what (quotes Celeste) I just wana be a happy girl. Walao, upsetting. And i realise i crap when im trying to express how i feel. Like i get all tangled up in words i talk nonsense. That sucks.

Anyway, second last picture i like. Alvin and Daf's face epic!! They are actually acting like a kid snatching a dog toy? *roll eyes at them* Last picture shows Jenga and Wilson? hahahaha. We were actually having fun playing Jenga in the board game room hours before poa paper. Naize~

I should be sleeping now, but yeh been away from the cyber world from too long. Or rather, my laptop. Thanks to my bb (aww, my love) im never too far away from the cyber world :D Yay, im happy now thanks to people like Julydia (fav girl), Liying (another fav girl), Daf (another fav girl too), Xueting (lovely sister), Bertrand (surprsingly?! :X), Junhe, Celeste, Alfred, Travis, Adiel all the wonderful people. Really, thanks for being there. I really appreciate it. Marcus Tan you not included cause you sucks, say my blog act, and whenever i say sad things to you you give me irritating comments that piss me even futher. Yucks, you suck.

If you want me to move on, at least tell me what's wrong. Put yourself in my shoes. Say me stubborn or whatever characteristics im born with to wana find out the truth. If it happened to you, what will you do? Think.